she made me laugh!
shes so nice!
if we can stay this way, i'll put aside the feelings i shouldnt have for her.
really.
havent blogged for quite sometime now.
went to sofia's house tdae.
her rooms really nice.
and her brother is so mean.
lyk damn mean can.
then we played truth or dare.
and i had to ask him whats his age.
i was so freaked pls.
i was blocking the refrigerator and he was lyk excuse me.
then i moved away lyk a robot.
but i did manage to complete the dare!
didnt do any revision tdae.
i feel tiredd.
ok then.
happy revising pple.
time for some serious revision.
by the way, i hate merchant of venice.
and shakespeare.
i like lulu poem!
i got 21/25.
why wouldnt i like it then?
went shopping this morning.
wif my mum.
i got my NEW SHOES!!
and i got a NEW PILLOW!!
its so soft and makes me feel lyk im floating in the air.
so now ive got 2 dearr pillows.
the older one, im sure no one will want it.
afterall, it hasnt been washed since the day i got it.
which was when i was 7 yrs old.
hahha.
and my fwens touched it n all.
then when i told them, they were so freaked.
then uhm.
i got this new bag frm Perlini's.
its really cool.
my mum bought slippers for herself.
and we shopped for my sister.
her shopping took the longest time pls.
but its worth it i guess.
did a bit of fcking d&t juz now.
revised and practised maths ystrdae.
i dun tink i got much studying done this weekend.
oh, brad pitt was so charming in The Mexican!
I slept during the julia roberts parts.
and stayed wide awake during the brad pitt parts.
HAHHA.
my dad wanted to watch the soccer match.
he was like, "so many pple watching soccer and u wanna watch brad pitt?!"
okie! my sister has started her bloody crying.
ive to go see her now.
ciaoz.
i wasnt really my hyper self tdae.
pple were like, "y u look so sad.."
even when usarin led the stretching fer mass run.
i was like, its usarin. uh, yeah. right.
ethel had no effect too.
went to look for sharon goh.
really couldnt stand it at one point.
but then decided not to.
or she'll know i lied to her abt my feelings.
to get out of counseling of course.
well, i thought abt it ystrdae night.
and i know what i want.
but i cannot get it.
the solution is probably..
us being friends?
and she has to really really treat me as her friend larh.
which isnt exactly possible since she treats pple younger than her in a particular way.
the other solution is that i stop torturing her.
but that way, i'll die with evrything inside me!
look.
she isnt even talking to me.
hello?
why am i sitting infront of the tablet waiting for a miracle?
especially when exams are coming?
i'll go start mugging right away.
well, i hope she talks to me.
like, now.
i feel like dumping myself in the recycle bin on my tablet.
and then emptying it.
all thats left of me, is what i pretend to be.
yes, i know.
i'll never make it.
never be gd enuff for her.
its hard for me here alrite.
im risking my peace of mind, which ive worked hard to achieve.
bcoz i love her and i wanna AT LEAST be in talking terms with her.
i was trying to be brave.
for the first time.
but her replies almost made me cry.
of course, i didnt cry.
coz ive changed.
well, still not gd enuff for her i suppose.
am i asking for too much?
i dun tink so.
backk!
school tmrw.
-groans
i bought new winnie the pooh towel!
uber cute.
ive only got 1 compre and newsppr article left.
and i finish harry potter and the half-blood prince.
in 3 days!
my fave part is the horcruxes part.
so cool.
and i cried alott larh.
u noe, dumbledore died.
i miss crescent oreadi!
uma, why did u bring ur fren shiva to sch?
our sch girls have started liking that poor boy.
and he's not hot larh please.
Michael Moscovitz: Mia, the past five months have been the most magical of my life. Being with you is like having a refreshing ocean breeze blowing constantly against my passion-fevered brow. You are my sole reason for living; the purpose for which my heart beats. It would be the greatest honour of my life if i could escort you to the Senior Prom, where you must promise to dance every single dance with me.
Amelia Thermopolis: Oh, Michael! This is so sudden i simply wasn't expecting it! But i adore you with every fibre of my being, so of course i will go to the Prom with you and dance every single dance with you!*kiss* isnt this a bit too drama mama-ish for a 15 year old?hahaha.
came back frm aunt's place.
uhm, emailed my pri sch tcher.
moodswinging now.
ive been reading a lot lately.
but my english doesnt improve!
-ponders
i was in specs 2dae as i woke up late.
and pple started saying i look studious!
hahha.
was multi-tasking tdae.
not very good at it tho.
ive started on my hmwk!
finally.
did more than half of sci.
did a bit of math.
and 1 pg of hmt.
haii.
still so much to go.
oh did i mention?
ive got the same belt as ethel.
(: whee~
oh shes juz a crush btw.
shes super chio!
shes the chioest in crescent!
and i tink shes so girly too.
oh wells.
AAD was not as nice as last year.
was really tired larh.
ms jamie seow screened our dance thingy at mini forum so many times can!
ethel was watching man!!
and i was seated behind her.
-hides face
then ms shamini came to watch our performance.
hahha.
khathija did the bridge thingy and then i saw.
she didnt zip her jeans.
LOL.
so obvious one.
and when they screened the dance thingy rite.
i realised that i shd haf pulled my jeans higher.
can see my hips and all pls.
henna and tattoo business was good.
i put tattoo for SHARON GOH, THE QUEEN ok!!
i touched her!!
hahahahah.
:D
then uhm.. was talking to her tt day abt her.
and she said that we will never talk again coz she doesnt like me.
and she said its MY FAULT.
actually it is i guess.
but ive tried so hard to change myself.
and look.
ive got a life alrite.
juz becoz she didnt tok to me doesnt me its over.
ive still gotta study.
ive still got my friends, tchers and family.
ive stil got my eyecandy.
and i can still smile. (:
doesnt mean its not heart breaking larh.
haii.
i didnt even stalk her.
and didnt stare at her all the time.
ive changed, really.
but the feelings still there.
im sure abt that.
coz they are true.
but let's not talk abt that.
i'd rather keep my feelings to myself.
:D
oh yeah.
watched passion of the christ tdae.
its rated M18.
i watched anw.
and i regret it.
its juz too bloody fer me.
i cried so much and i really couldnt take it anymore.
i didnt watch certain very terrible parts.
even my sister cried.
and shes just 3.
haii.
finished shamini's blog.
she posted.
yeah.
i tink shes overprotected too.
and kids will rebel if they are overprotected.
thats whats happening to her anws.
evrytime we go out, hafta come up wif lies.
haii.
and to my perfectionist:
talk to me, talk to me please.
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