"mind over body, body over soul"

Monday, November 22, 2004

why did u check my 26111918-land hur?

it isnt yours.

n its my life.

as long as i have a heart; i'll love you.

-shamita
9:04 PM

Saturday, November 13, 2004

why.

i dnoe y my life is so screwed.

i hate holidays.

coz my parents keep bothering me.

haiz.

i dnoe.

n i wont go fer np till im sure.

dat she isnt coming.

i really love her alott.

n i cant face her again.

tho i wanna c her.

act, i dont.

when it comes to [you],

i dnoe myself.

what will it take to make [you] understand?

i love you.

n i miss you soo much.

everything means nothing,

if i aint got you.

mummy,daddy

leave me alone.

-shamita
9:49 PM

Tuesday, November 09, 2004

happy burfdae.

how do i wish you?

i`ll always love you.

nothing t say larh.

im alive again.

but i dnoe.

its lyk, no one understands.

i want my ex-ncos!!

at least dey cared.

heh..

i dream abt [her].

((:

i dreamt it was the last day of sch.

and she kissed me on my cheek.

i cud really feel it u noe.

n i cried after dat.

coz i was ultra happy.

wish dat will happen..

but she has areadi left.

tskk. haiz.

no matter what.

i`ll love her.

and i cant even wish her.

-cries

wat t do.

btw, im bisexual.

((:

hehe.

i love my boy.

-shamita
10:41 PM

Saturday, November 06, 2004

the thing i like so much abt [you],

is ur determination.

i dun c it in others.

juz you.

n ur sqd is excellent,

coz of their ex-ncos. ((:

anw.

i got nothing much t say larh.

dead pple dun talk.

dead pple dun attend classes or cca.

dead pple oni tok t pple dey love.

im bullshit.

i became mad ystrday.

diana witnessed my death.

i dnoe y im behaving liddis.

but i juz wanna.

coz it sorta.. helps me hide the pain.

wateva.

t my parents

u pple.

i dnoe larh.

its easy fer u t say no cutting.

n check my body evryday.

yeah.

by not allowing me t cut,

ur juz making me more..

depressed?

i dnoe larh.

if u dun wan me t cut,

y dun u juz tok 2 me?

i noe u noe abt [her].

i noe u noe how much i luv [her].

den y dun u tok?

coz ive got nobody.

no one cares.

im unwanted.

-shamita
9:34 PM

[.you]

im dead.

are u happy now?

how can you speak t me liddat?

hur?

how come ur so heartless.

u tink i called u fer fun arh?

i had no one so i called you.

and you.

shoot ur words at me w/o thinking.

n u went after dat.

u dnoe wat happened after dat do you.

bleah.

but wateva u said.

is right.

unwanted.

died w/o physical pain.

my story ends here.

-shamita
1:34 AM

Wednesday, November 03, 2004

im wasting electricity.

perfect10 is on almost 24hrs.

juz fer one song.

hahah.

at first, i didnt tink my life would be terrible.

lyk welcome to my life.

now dat it is, im addicted to the song.

heh.

i'll always love [you].

no matter what.

i miss you.

i havent got enuff.

how long is things gonna stay dis way?

coz i cant live lyk this.

-shamita
9:15 PM

Tuesday, November 02, 2004

heh.

went out tdae.

was ok larh.

mum's gonna hit me.

coz i din ask her permission.

aiyo. tskk.

saw crescentian at cck mrt.

ahems.

yupp.

my parents say i MUST go 4 maths.

haiz. i dun tink i can handle it larh.

im so lifeless now.

i cant xplain how much she has hurt me.

tskk.. haiz..

im keeping my fingers crossed.

dat things will be ok.

i hope her o's was good.

anything.

you dont noe what its lyk, when nothing feels alright.

-shamita
8:17 PM

You came from the water. Calm and shy, you know
what you want, but sometimes are afraid to
stand up for yourself.

Where did you come from?
brought to you by

-shamita
8:15 PM

Dark magician. You love the dark because of it's
beauty and just the life that no-one else sees.
Mysterious, calm, quiet... But that doesn't
mean you're not friendly!

Please rate ^^

What kind of dark person are you?
brought to you by

-shamita
8:10 PM

backk.

coz i couldnt stay.

w/o some pple.

which isnt joyene.

anw.

im still hurt.

n it wont heal.

anytime soon.

coz i luv [her].

heh.

thanx so much yuani.

w/o you, i dnoe wat i'll be lyk now.

ilu sistar.

-shamita
10:10 AM