feeling blue again...coz of boredom i guess. Whenever i get bored,i wish we were still frens so dat i can crap 2 her abt mi sucky life. God..am i really back 2 my normal self? I dun care wat she thinks anymore n she can hurt me all she wants. Im neva lying again.. Act i wanna blog alot but mi dad's home. He is a real kpo. Keep coming n seeing wat im doing so i guess i'll leave now.. Feeling so bored.
hmm..mi very free now..n absolutely hapi coz of "him". hehe. Actually itz not a him la but a him-kinda-gal. Aiya..4get it. She is juz very nice. I din noe she was so nice 2 tok 2. She looks nice but im scared of her tho..
I toked 2 her ystrday..b4 going back home n on msn oso. Shez kool u noe.. After a freaking longg time,i woke uo smiling 2dae.. Is eveything gonna change? N i was practically laughing da whole day coz she very sweeet..lolz.
But i havent 4gottn her. Im sucha fool. How cud i haf trusted her juz liddat n told her everything? Dis is wat she gives me in return? Hmm..4get it. 4get her. Lyk wat tg said..shez not worth crying over. I wasted so much of tears on her. 4 wat? Not dat she cares.. In fact,i tink she'll be very hapi if she noes i cried soo much over her,rite? I hate her but i tink deep down in my heart,i still luv her.. Afterall,she was everything 2 me rite?
Ni fong, Jolene, Dinie, Tricia, mi ex-ncos n all my frens...thankew soo much 4 helping me thru dis tough tyms. Sistar..how can i 4got u?? Ur special. U deserve more dan thanx. Hehe. *muackz* luv ya sis..
...wat more can i say? life totally sucks. tatz all.
tg is very nice can? shez ultra ultra nice.. she said me n her will grow up 2gether in our 4yrs ahead..buahaha. =) n i had da wrong impression of sum1 coz of [her]. now itz all cleared up anyway n im telling tg 2moro dat liyana isnt da one hu told all dat crappy stuff. liyana is nice.hehe. n she doesnt lyk..nvm. shud not publish here.
so abt dis new prob..i cant tell any1..i told tg,my sistar n ni fong onli i tink. After 2.4km run,i was so stinky n i went 2 tok 2 nf. I ended up hugging her coz i was crying. Cried maannyy times 4 da past few days. Till tg n my sistar toked 2 me. i shud not worry after all. tg is soo nice.. she oso said im a good student. she is sensible u noe..abt being hurt. N she will tell mrs.wong if i dun take things easy.. so..decided 2 gif up. i'll not tok 2 her anymore. she is nobody 2 me. juz lyk im nobody 2 her.
Guess im ok now tho..i actually laughed 2day?! after sucha longg time..n played around wif mi frens. im back 2 my normal self tg..
im back. n 2 my dearest sistar..i reallie luv ya. thanx 4 being dere 4 me..ur super sweeeet!!*muackz* luv ya.
only 1 thing worries me now..i'll hafta face life on my own n i feel guilty coz i leaved him 4 her..y did i do it? n oso..watz all dis thing going on among SUM sec2s ah? i din spread any rumour. i neva tok abt u 2 any1. i've had enuff sorrow coz of u ok? i dunno any1. neither u nor ur sec4 fren FULL-STOP
>>sistar,i nid 2 tok 2 u. dun be hapi after reading dis.i nid 2 tell ya sumthing. take carez..muackz.
Oh god..life reallie suckz. Wat more can i say? Atleast tg is still nice 2 me. Thank god. N anyway,everything is mi fault aint it? Yeah.. I hope i do well 4 sci 2moro...
Haha..shez still so nice 2 me. Well anyway..hey i hugged da-gal-hu-is-sweet-4eva 2day u noe.. I juz suddenly felt so sad so i hugged her n it was terrific. It lasted 4 almost 4 hrs b4 i saw her n got sad again.. Oral 2moro.. im nervous. I think i'll flunk it especially wif soo mnay things constantly bothering me now. Gawd..hope i pass. Mi studying 2dae 4 next week. Im trying hard not 2 fail da math test nxt week but i always fail math rite?? N im starting 2 miss sum1 but im not da rite person 4 dat sum1. Ok...hopefully i do well 4 mi oral 2moro... Btw,her shirt was kinda yucky 2dae. Lolz. But shez always nice... :p
Oh god..im dieing..
Suddenly,pple r nasty 2wards me. Itz either im 2 affected or pple are reallie nasty 2 me. I dunno. I..shud i tok abt tg here? Oh well,i cant lyk her!! 4 goodness sake,im her rep n i shud luv her rite? Told da-gal-hu-is-4eva-sweet abt dis. Shall go tok 2 sum1 abt dis..lolz. N when on earth did i ever say dat [she] was coming inbetween me n maam?? Y so many untrue things abt me spread in da sch? Wonder hu hates me..ohh i noe wat. But she wouldnt do such things. Haha. I slept so peacefully 2dae n sum1 has 2 spoil my mood after i wake up. I can neva be hapi liddat. Da tym when i slp is da oni tym dat i dun think abt it.. Well anyway,i failed my maths test[xpected especially now].. Dunno wat my parens gonna say.. She was soo nice 2 me during lesson 2dae anyway. Juz had 2 say dat.. Anyway,im gonna go try 2 catch up wif mi work..I tink i'll try helping myself 1st so i wont hafta trouble maam n da-gal-hu-is-4eva-sweet. Haha. Gd luck 4 oral sec1s!!
At least i noe now..i dun hafta confuse myself. Tho itz soo depressing. Maam is soo sweet. Shez rite dat she isnt mi life.. but still u noe..i luv her so much.. Oni if she din shout her name i wouldnt haf seen da look on her face.. I wish i neva met her n oso i wont have loved her n i wont be crying now. I dun wanna get back maths test.. i will haf another thing 2 worry abt. n im sure i failed. how will i tell mi parens without getting wacked? Ohh ya,mi hp got confiscated 2dae.. No comments abt it. Next week got test...-sigh- Mr Samat is so smart coz he noes when im sumthing is troubling me alot. He say dat p.e lessons i gif mi 100% n 2dae i din manage 2 complete da 3.2km run. I stopeed half way n he said "i noe..2dae u not feeling well" n started explaining things 2 me.. Din tok 2 TG 2dae n i cant be worried abt her now. Mebbe itz coz i haf other more serious things 2 worry abt. Anyway,rite now i oni wanna say 1 thing. I reallie hate myself. Itz coz of her dat i hate miself i tink. Im terrible datz y she hates me. N i hate myself too.. Life has neva sucked dis much b4 i guess... Hope everything changes..
At least i noe now..i dun hafta confuse myself. Tho itz soo depressing. Maam is soo sweet. Shez rite dat she isnt mi life.. but still u noe..i luv her so much.. Oni if she din shout her name i wouldnt haf seen da look on her face.. I wish i neva met her n oso i wont have loved her n i wont be crying now. I dun wanna get back maths test.. i will haf another thing 2 worry abt. n im sure i failed. how will i tell mi parens without getting wacked? Ohh ya,mi hp got confiscated 2dae.. No comments abt it. Next week got test...-sigh- Mr Samat is so smart coz he noes when im sumthing is troubling me alot. He say dat p.e lessons i gif mi 100% n 2dae i din manage 2 complete da 3.2km run. I stopeed half way n he said "i noe..2dae u not feeling well" n started explaining things 2 me.. Din tok 2 TG 2dae n i cant be worried abt her now. Mebbe itz coz i haf other more serious things 2 worry abt. Anyway,rite now i oni wanna say 1 thing. I reallie hate myself. Itz coz of her dat i hate miself i tink. Im terrible datz y she hates me. N i hate myself too.. Life has neva sucked dis much b4 i guess... Hope everything changes..
heya...
god...i wanna ask u sumthing ok? Y do u hate me? Izzit coz i freak u out? im sorrie.. But dun do this 2 me ok. Dun ignore me. I noe evrything. I saw it with mi own eyes but juz dun wanna tell any1 coz i cant... I gif up ok..
heya...
ystrday had pop. Thaya maam's present was soo nice n xy maams letter was soo touching dat we cried. Dun wanna tok abt pop coz i scared i'll cry. haha.
...July cum areadi... My wish didnt come true.. But in a way,im ok dat july is here. Coz if not i'll neva haf met TG. God...shez ultra kool. Everyday i tok 2 her but 2dae i didnt. Datz y now im searching 4 her e-mail add. N im worried abt her oso... dunno y. I saw (her) 2dae 2.. as usual, i ran away. Now i wanna go look 4 her e-mail addy.
Whoa...art 2moro. N Maths test. -sigh- Toyol will be leaving nxt year i tink. Yay!! -jumps 4 joy- Im toking 2 TG everyday now. B4 dat,i go toilet n try 2 make miself look nice. Den i'll go n say hie instead of gd morning. Hehe. N she doesnt mind anyway. 2dae i went bonkers after seeing her suddenly. I couldnt speak. Hmm..as soon as i get 2 tok 2 him,everything will be over.. Dun wanna think abt it...n ** is in sch so she cant make me hapi now...
Whoa...art 2moro. N Maths test. -sigh- Toyol will be leaving nxt year i tink. Yay!! -jumps 4 joy- Im toking 2 TG everyday now. B4 dat,i go toilet n try 2 make miself look nice. Den i'll go n say hie instead of gd morning. Hehe. N she doesnt mind anyway. 2dae i went bonkers after seeing her suddenly. I couldnt speak. Hmm..as soon as i get 2 tok 2 him,everything will be over.. Dun wanna think abt it...n ** is in sch so she cant make me hapi now...
Hey u! Not u but U!! Tsk...y did u tell me?? I dunno if im still **** now.. I always had feelings 4 u ok but i neva did say anything coz i was scared dat i'll not be ****. Anyway,now u noe everything rite. Nothing 2 hide anymore. But I still luv those guys u noe..
Ok anyway,Ms.Goh rawkz 2 da core!! I luv her manx... She's soo kool n kind. Xcep when shez angry. Hehe. Gonna meet him 2moro.. I haf no choice. Mi csn sis is forcing me. Nowadays weekend n holidaes im not at home readi.. Im out wif guys..hehe. But all r juz frens xcep 1 or 2 la.. N shez torally not kool ok. I haf a name. She kol me "oie!" I no name ah? Stoopid... No wonder evryone hates her. Mi sis is soo cute can? She is sum pix n say whether their nice anot.. She saw dis galz pic n said "ee!! So ugly.." n saw her pic n said "c **. Soo cute" haha. Now shez bz dancing.. I wanna go sleep readi liaos... I was gonna slp 2dae in sch ok. Mebbe itz coz da medicine??
Hey u! Not u but U!! Tsk...y did u tell me?? I dunno if im still **** now.. I always had feelings 4 u ok but i neva did say anything coz i was scared dat i'll not be ****. Anyway,now u noe everything rite. Nothing 2 hide anymore. But I still luv those guys u noe..
Ok anyway,Ms.Goh rawkz 2 da core!! I luv her manx... She's soo kool n kind. Xcep when shez angry. Hehe. Gonna meet him 2moro.. I haf no choice. Mi csn sis is forcing me. Nowadays weekend n holidaes im not at home readi.. Im out wif guys..hehe. But all r juz frens xcep 1 or 2 la.. N shez torally not kool ok. I haf a name. She kol me "oie!" I no name ah? Stoopid... No wonder evryone hates her. Mi sis is soo cute can? She is sum pix n say whether their nice anot.. She saw dis galz pic n said "ee!! So ugly.." n saw her pic n said "c **. Soo cute" haha. Now shez bz dancing.. I wanna go sleep readi liaos... I was gonna slp 2dae in sch ok. Mebbe itz coz da medicine??
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