Hi...
I donno.I donno.I donno watz wroung wid me.I wish I dont hafta go back 2 Crez,dont hafta study,dont hafta see her n blah...But it's a wish n wishes dont always come true.Especially my wishes.I really dont wan pple 2 bother me now.I feel lyk I'm under too much of pressure.Simply coz I'm stoopid n try to do even better in my tests or whateva.I donno how I got 255 last year.Seriously,I tink itz juz luck.I donno what I'm living 4.If I was never born,I do not hafta go thru what I'm goin thru now.Only if my parents wud understand me.They donno ANITHIN abt me.Everything they tink of me is wrong.Whateva they say abt me is TOTALLY WRONG.But my ma'ams do understand me.I cannot be lyk this.Itz a disgrace to my role model.I noe I hafta to go back n go thru things at Crez.Itz reallie so...I juz dun feel lyk going back.Afterall,everyone I love are there n I musnt let my ma'ams lose face.I must go back n study hard.If 2moro SHE comes n says something bad to me,I will take to heart.Coz I'm ready lyk so depressed n yeah.So pple dont do things that will hurt me k??If u wanna hurt me,then 2 moro is ur day.Saw Filzah juz now.Itz been lyk so long since I said hie to her.I reallie need sm1 2 tok 2 n itz lyk every1 is so bz except fer 1 person.Cant tell cz l8er she will get into trouble.Sm1 tagged Zakiah ma'am's blog.The person is reallie bad.I wish I can lyk...dun let her see the msg.Aniwae,I noe she will be ok.But I mite not be ok too soon.I'm lyk that.Haven 4get anithing abt yesterday rite.Not even 1 single bit.But XY ma'aM N Thaya ma'am,both of u'll reallie made me feel betta.Thanx.Malikka is pissed so I neva tell her anithin.I dont think she will understand also.Coz she lyks Zakiah ma'am too.Dont wanna disturb her.Shes alreadi pissed.2moro muz go 2 Crez n haf a hard time.Gotta finish up hw.Did loads 2day.Maybe that's y I become...so weak emotionally.Or maybe Its coz of yesterday.Rite now,I can depend on XY ma'am n renu n Thaya ma'am to tell everithing.Not gonna bother them.I seriously wish the world will come 2 an end.My mom will start nagging if I use fer 2 long.What to do.My life lyk dat what....I juz wish everithing will haf a change except life at NP.If I go fer NP I will be betta.But theres still 1 more week.So bear wid me pple.Argh...I dont wanna go sch...Muz go.Musnt make her lose face.
~Glad.that.u.r.ok~
~U.did.ur.best~
~Dun.care.what.others.say~
~@least.u.noe.u.did.ur.bes~
~U.totalli.rawk!~
Hie...
Feel so much better after toking to XY ma'am.She really like....made me feel ok.Smsed Thaya ma'am too.They both say that Zakiah ma'am is ok...I am ok if she is ok.Not that I m copying her or sumthing.Coz its lyk....u do what ur role model does rite...Yeah.Me n XY ma'am toking abt the crook juz now.So damn funny.We both knew we were toking abt the same personbut we refuse to tell the name out.I broke the ice finally.I wanna go check out which ma'am she lykes.She actually told me but I 4got.Enuff abt her.Zakiah ma'am is actually...angry wid sm1.Donno who.She's ok!~yipee~But I will neva 4get what happened.Tokin abt the crook,I really feel the creeps man!Hafta go do hw.Didnt do juz now coz was troubled.Chatting wid Malikka now.She very pissed.I scared of her when she is pissed.Coz if she shouts at me...I'll be so....heart-broken.
Ma'am,U R lyk grass.
U will keep bouncing back no matter
how many times or how hard u get
stepped on.
U rawk my world!
Heya...
Donno Y I wanna keep blogging.Coz of the crying incident I think.Donno.I juz donno what I m feeling.I guess I m probably sad...Really didnt expect things 2 turn out this way.But hafta understand that failure is the first step to success.The team did well but they were sad probably coz THEIR aim was not met.Anyway....gotta go now.Hope all my ma'ams get over it.We can still get uopa points thru other things.Yeah.
I donno where 2 start.So many thoughts running through my head.N everything is abt her.Shall start frm...ok.Was walking to canteen when i saw HER.She was going lyk"I see a freak"when she saw me.I juz walked away.Seriously,cant she juz get a grip on life?Then,the sec 1 squad was going to fall in.Zakiah ma'am came n everyone greeted her.She greet back.So loud n nice.Then we had foot drill.We learn the..."Squad tenang lompat sediya & senang diri"((not sure abt the spelling))We all tried it individually.I keep laughing.My laughter so contagious that instead of scolding me Thaya ma'am laughed also.But I managed 2 do it.Loud n clear.I feel lyk i juz got a promotion.Haha.Then we board the bus fer the campcraft competition.We were lyk cheering all the way.Then we reached the police academy(pa).So excited n happy.I can go in.Normal pple cannot!~yipee~Then we walked so quietly n neatly to somewhere.The place was packed with a whole lot of police cadets.I was trying to be in my best behaviour.Musnt let Crez Np lose face.We were all lyk okay except maybe some.I donno.Thaya ma'am said.Then I saw this sch that did badly 4 campcraft.They were clearing up.They were actually throwing their temper at the tools n sheets.I didnt really lyk their way of behaving.Then saw CGS campcraft team at the line.They all lookeed stressed.Especially Zakiah ma'am.She is the captain.Then she went out 1st.Did something n got back to her original position.By that time all the sec 4 ma'ams were quite nervous.And frankly I was VERY nervous.I started crossing my fingers n was praying that they muz do well n nothing should cock up.They were all acting fast n they were tensed.When Zakiah ma'am was pegging rite,her veins blotched out.She was shouting her throat off to motivate the team to work faster.I was freaked by the sight.Then something funny happened.Zakiah ma'am was gonna raise the flag.The way she raised it was so superb.I was...shall I say facinated?Something lyk that lah.Juz one pull n the flag was up.Then it was over.She cried ok.I donno why.I dont wanna tell which ma'am incase she feels embarressed.She was crying so terribly.I donno y she was crying.But I started to cry also.Therez a reason fer me to cry.Coz she was crying.Not only her.I think the whole campcraft team n some sec 4 ma'ams n I cried.I didnt cry coz CGS lost.I cried coz she cried.It really affected me.No one noe that i cried.Didnt tell.But I really am affected by it.I mite not be krazy over her.But that doesnt mean I dont lyk her.No matter what,she is still part of the NP family.Gettit?I still have care,concern n love 4 her n all the ma'ams.Even if they are good or bad,fit or not fit,pretty or ugly,clever or supid or anything,JUZ ANYTHIN,I will love all of them n my squad mates wid all my heart.Most of the pple who noe me noe that I m not close to my family.Simply coz my parents dont love me n I dont love thm either.But I love my Crez n Np family.Frankly ok,Zakiah ma'am is my role model.Itz not neccessary 2 lyk ur role model.But they r ur example for life.I wanna,or rather will become lyk her coz shes my role model.But I am so....I donno affected in what way but juz very affected by that crying incident.Until now,I m not sad coz we lost n itz coz the team cried.But I m still proud of them.They actually did their best n they are not bad losers.They didnt throw temper at any1.They landed at sch n sec 1 squad was lyk"We love campcraft team!".Zakiah ma'am juz walked away.Nobody really cared.They were lyk...Dont try n cheer us up,coz we feel so bad that we cant be cheered up".Told chiobu about this.I donno if she has done anything to cheer Zakiah ma'am up.So what if we dont win?At least the team gave their 100%.Itz just that the world is so unfair that OUR twine should snap!Crescent NPCC will show the world that even though it is unfair to us,we will still be placed in gold,silver or bronze or wateva this year.Ma'am u noe hu u r.Juz cheer up ok?The team was really good...n u r still my role model.Take care.NP Rox my world!
+No.matter.what.happens+
+We.will.4ever.be.united+
+Together.we.will.keep.Crez NP flag+
+Soaring.high+
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-----Juz 4 Someone-----((Not chiobu))
I thought u were good.
I thought u were lyk gold;
But u r lead.
U see me high up on the mountain.
I walk through the sun.
Only then did I realize that,
I am sunlight myself.
By:Canadian Indian
Rewritten By:Me
Hie...
2day I m very moody.Pple sorrie if i behaved awkwardly yeah??Especially Shamini.I was actually lyk ignoring her the whole day even during lit test when she needed liquid paper.I really was pissed at that time,so I didn't lend her.I thought abt it.I noe it isn't rite 2 throw my temper at her.So I lent it to her.So sweet eh??I m moody this morning cz I thought everything between me n chiobu is ending.Was so sad...Den l8er,Becca ma'am gave me the mysterious np letter n ask me to pass 2 Malikka.I didn't understand what she wans to do with the letter as everything was over.But I trust what she does.So...yeah.That gal...so bloody pissed wid her.Some pple juz dont noe simple courtesy.Who cares??Whatever she says is juz...CRAP.REAL CRAP!I dont care at all.As long as Malikka doesnt do things lyk dat...Then had to go n see Mr Gau abt the MRT incident.Thankew!Thankew!Thankew!Donno to who lah.Didnt get demerit.-phew..-I don mind getting 1 or 2 demerit.But more than that...yeah.Most probably he will announce to the sch abt not drinkin at the platform.Yeah.My face is going to turn red n Shamini will strt saying"So cute..."Lolz.Excited abt 2moro.Campcraft competition.We all going to police headquarters!So excited.Then,Zakiah ma'am,Joan ma'am,Yongni ma'am n many other ma'ams gonna participate.Crez NP will win.I know my ma'ams can do it.We will beat the rest n keep the Crez NP flag soaring high lyk what Zakiah ma'am say.Today had the shock or surprise of the day,whicheva way u wanna phrase it.I was @ the canteen n my fren said"u wanna look at ur cute ma'am?"I thought she was juz kidding so I turned n there she was!Oh my gosh..Imagine how I would feel!But I left after that.Didnt wanna stare.Lit test 2day was OKAY only.Not hard.Not ez.N was going to go fer science lesson.Didnt even look @ Malikka.I was in sucha bad mood.Till i went 2 the Comp lab.Christine passed me a letter.I opened n was so damn happy.It was from chiobu!!So...I guess we r still quite close.Thankew..So happy u noe..As I said she has the ability to make me smile when I m sad.I smiled!Thankew 4 making me smile chiobu.Den...Science copy so many notes.Aiyo..Oh!Shamini so bad u know.She go n tell Chiobu that I neva pay atten. in class.That I m day-dreaming.Itz true.But itz coz she was troubling me that I couldn't pay atten.Chiobu say I shd pay atten. la..I will okay?I promise.I will try my best to pay atten.But so difficult u noe...Math n english especially.Muz try!Cant wait till 2moro.Campcraft.I dont think she is ok wid Shafina ma'am yet.Coz in the letter,she was lyk...shd not say it here.Yeah.Shafina ma'am dont worry yeah?I understand how u feel without her in ur life.I noe.Ever experiance.So...juz gif her some time.The person who rote the "oh michael" poem is the one who rote me the letter.100 % confirm.Coz rite,the paper used,the pen n the handwriting was exactly the same!But I m not sure if she is the one who rote the letter.Malikka say Thaya ma'am noe abt this.So freaked u noe.I hope Zakiah ma'am wont know.It juz feels so weird.Nevamine,shd not tok abt that.2moro Crez NP will return to Crez with victory!Yeah!We are the best ok?No denying about that.Ma'ams,gd luck 2 all of u!
>>CrEz NpCc Is tHe cHaMpIon!!<<
M so lost in this freakin world!
I juz feel so troubled...About my Eng test,Tamil lessons n everything else practically.Where are u when I really need u now??Where on earth r u?I posted u a letter.Where r u my angel?Gave u a kol.Where r u my buddy?Life is so different without u.I really need u ok.N abt Shafina ma'am.She say u can tok to her anytime u want.She will always be there.[[Me too!!]]That's all.Juz wanna tell u that i need u.Smsing me is not enough.
Take Care...
So anxious.I THINK I found out who rote the letter 2 me.It could be her.I said the same handwriting appeared on a noticeboard rite?Yeah.I told sylvia ma'am that the poem was nice.She said she wrote it.And so?I asked her if she wrote the letter.She said no and went away.I wanted to tell Malikka this.So i ran and went to look 4 her.She had left sch.(Said her fren in class)But @ the canteen,I saw Shafina ma'am.Thaya ma'am was very close to us.So i signaled Shafina ma'am to come closer.I only told her that I found out who wrote the letter.She was lyk...it's either over happy or anxious.I donno.I didn't actually tell her itz Sylvia ma'am.She n Rebecca ma'am forced me to tell or else they will tell Thaya ma'am.I was really so freaked by them so I told them.Itz not really confirmed yet so I didn't wanna tell any1 except Malikka.How to confirm this?Itz not only Sylvia ma'am u knoe.Her frens oso.If u read the letter carefully u will know.Juz told Malikka about this.She didn't reply.Called her but she said she was in sch when i noe she wasn't.Then her fren koled me back.They called for no reason.I was so confused.I don't think our frenship will last long.Seriously haf this gut feeling.I juz hope it will last n keep my fingers crossed.I FAILED english test.99.8% in my class failed.Such a tough test.Crescent has never given me luck!Only failures.Hafta work hard from now.I hate tamil.I hate tamil.I HATE TAMIL!!Dont wanna tok about tamil class.Really pisses me off!Oh yeah,was actually quite pissed juz now when her frens called me n tok nonsense.Now i m ok.Mr Phua on mc fer 2 days.Why can't it be a 100 days??!!My whole class started clapping when they heard that Mr Phua was absent.Except one gal who has a pathetic crush on him.I don't understand how gals can lyk him...I really hope Shafina ma'am's n Malikka's problem will be over.I took initiative to find out who rote the letter so that they will be frens again n Shafina ma'am will be back to normal.Nice to hear eh??Gotta reply Rachel n Deb soon.Took a bunch of postcards home today.I felt foolish when I saw pple taking a whole LOT.Oh my gosh!Tomorrow got teeny weeny Lit test.Muz study.Juz worried about me n Malikka now.Donno y.Shafina ma'am say she 4gif Malikka.Malikka say she din do anything wrong fer Shafina ma'am 2 4gif her.I SERIOUSLY DONNO!I AM NOT BETWEEN THESE 2 PPLE.I only want them 2 be back 2gether.That's all.I wanna let Malikka read my diary...Simply coz she is someone special n i cant imagine how life will be lyk without her.That's y i say i muz become independant n I know I will.=D Nothing else to write abt I tink.So....wish their reletionship best of luck!
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+pls.dont.ignore.me+
+life.w/out.u.being.urself.hurts+
+@.e.moment.therez.nthing.else.I.lyk.more.dan+
+U+
+Pls.understand+
~4 you~
For Loving U With All My Heart, I'm Guilty....
Heya....
So damn sad 2day.I seriously donno what to do abt chiobu n ma'am broken reletionship.It's all coz of me?!!Talked to Siti 2day.Heard the rubbishest thing anyone could have ever heard!About chiobu that she is a crook.I didn't belief.More than 5 or 6 pple telling me this shit u know.I really dont bother.I know she's not n she knows she's not too.So enuff!I seriously think these pple who spread rumours should get a life!Siti is not 1 of them coz she's juz an informer.Haha!I dont wanna get back D&T test!!Today saw my ma'am at the canteen.I know I m not krazy over her but i juz wanted 2 look at her 4 a while.She looked at me probably to see if i was looking at her.I was freaked.I forced myself to walk away.So sad at that.I know i cannot lyk her.I DON'T lyk her.Can the whole sch juz stop telling me abt her?!I was talking to a malay ma'am n my classmates thought it was her.They had gone wild n started shouting.Seriously donno watz wrong wid them.But I still love them ofcourse.No one in my class noes chiobu except Xiangyin,Huiping,Hidayah,Shamini n...Siew Ling.She said my classmates shouted her name n run away.Muz be these gals lah...Making me paise.Malikka seemed awkward 2day.Itz coz of...I donno.I talked 2 her!Yipee!I never get to talk 2 her in sch coz of...her.But Siti say that she is nice.I donno.Maybe she is but she is definetely not nice to me.1st time being bullied I think.Actually,I owe Ms.Tan my summary.I so scared lah.I'm never gonna give her that piece of work n get scolded lyk a lifeless gal.Saw Syawal's friend today.I found out which sch he is in ready!He's in Fajar Sec.Hidayat also.I really hate Hidayat n am still hating him.I really loved Syawal n i think i still do have place 4 him in my heart.He was really charming n nice.I miss my pri sch alot nowadays.Renu,Atiqah,Syawal n everyone in 6J.Donno y I lyk that class so much!I can see Syawal at Clementi MRT station u know...So glad.Using alot of internet nowadays.I think itz time 4 me to go...
+Peace+
Heya...
Ok,this is my 2nd try @ blogger.Let's see if it works..Anyway,my old blog was crezgal.diaryland.com,yeah?No www there.Silly rite?Anyway,Let me juz summarize my past few days.Oh Im not good at summary.This is going to be a long entry...Listening to toxic now..The song reali rox eh??Yesterday,I consider myself very unlucky.Got caught @ the MRT Station drinkin.The MRT staff((idiotic Chai Cher Her)) took down my name and my class.I was giving him the U reali are sickening look.Was so pissed man!Who knows whatz gonna happen in sch?In NPCC somemore.What a unlucky day...Oh yeah!I passed my History test with flying colours!Ok maybe not flying colours but at least i got good marks.=DThe credit goes to chiobu.She gave me the inspiration to study n helped me through hard times.Yeah...At least i have a reason to lyk her as my sis.Today peer leading was nice.I dont understand why i lyk peer leading.Coz of my peer leaders i guess.Hannah & Jiayi,u guyz rock my world!Not forgetting chiobu and all my ma'ams.I juz dread tamil lessons.She really sux.I needed to pee urgently 2day during tamil n she didnt let me go coz i didnt ask her fer permission in tamil.Tamil juz suck!Who is gonna use tamil while speaking?Sick lady!Enuff abt her i tink..2moro creative arts test.Frankly,life in crez...no rest at all man!Every time got test.How did the seniors survive?I wonder..Sick 4 the pass few days...No choice hafta go sch and exercise also!Saturday got NP.I don wanna be left out juz bcoz I'm sick!The rest of the pple will be lyk...suffering during PT and i will be there watching them?!No way.Remember:One 4 All,All 4 One Wow!Im sucha gd NP Cadet.Cant be lyk Zakiah ma'am ofcourse!She's too commited is all I can say.Gd.Don reali wanna tok abt her.I juz got over her n i don wanna be krazy again...-sigh-Chiobu suspected Sh***** ma'am.That she wrote to me the mysterious letter.I donno but i dont think itz true.I have proof too.Donno when chiobu is goin to follow me to see the proof!Miss her alot..I dont dare tok to her when that gal is there.She's lyk...what shall i say..She's just lyk a bully.She keeps saying something when she walks pass me.I juz cant make out wat is it...Shouldn't bother myself with this kinda silly things.Not my pasal coz i seriously donno who the hell she is.Should give her some respect.No matter what i still do respect her as my senior.I'm getting further n further from Chiobu nowadays.Pray that our reletionship will last.Hafta learn how 2 be independent...D&T test 2day very hard.I will fail.I know.I juz write nonsense coz i donno the answers.How did I get 255 last year?Still wondering.2day i saw my pri sch senior.She used to be very awful.Now so chio ready.Wow....She still remembers me when i 4got her.Gd rite.At least got pple who remember me.Toked to pri sch fren 2day.She was telling me abt her bfs.I wish Crescent got boyz.On 2nd thoughts,I dont.Boys juz suck!((some r nice though lyk danny))Im going to help my pri sch fren create blog.I myself so stupid.Muz help her some more.Btw,I am 2nd highest fer tamil.Cant belief but itz true.92 n a half.Good eh?That's about it I think.So...I think I will go online 2moro.
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